It’s so easy to judge someone. I do it all the time. I make snap judgements and while sometimes I feel smugly justifies in my gut reaction, more often than not I am humbled by the fact that I jumped too quick and wrong in my thoughts. It’s part of being human. As I get older I learn to move a little slower in my thought process. I often still jump to conclusions and depending on who you are in my life, I may jump to a negative conclusion or give you the benefit of the doubt, regardless of which reaction is warranted.
Since my divorce and subsequent moving on with my life, I have found that I feel judged by some people. I feel this way because slowly but surely they have pushed me away from them. There is one person in particular that seems to just be so uncomfortable with my existence, that she really tries to act as if I don’t exist, she does the same to my ex husband. We were at one point fairly good friends. Not anymore. I’m ok with this. I have found out who my friends are, who my true friends are. The most recent interaction with this person, was somewhat surprising, but I won’t lie, I baited her to see what would happen. And when what I thought would happen happened, I was pissed, and then I worked myself through it. I have no need to have her in my life if she can’t accept what my life is. I’m sorry if my imperfect life is scary, or offensive to you. But what was running through my mind during this, was I have no right to be angry or upset at her for judging me, because I do the same to other people. What I need to remember is that it’s a lot of wasted energy, worrying about what people think, worrying about people who no longer deserve to be worried about. It’s time to let go of what was my village, and embrace my new village. It’s time to stop judging and worrying and just row my own boat.